I was raised on the notion that honesty is, above all else, the ultimate virtue. For many years, if anyone had asked me what I admire most in a person, I would have said “honesty.” When I began reading etiquette columns, the Queen of which is Miss Manners, I was so completely dumbfounded by her constant advice to lie. To be honest, I still am. … Continue reading Authenticity
Memories light the corners of my mindMisty water-colored memories of the way we were… Barbara Streisand – The Way We Were Funny story – the song I just quoted, I have never heard Barbara Streisand sing it. I heard it when I watched Big when I was a kid, and I watched that movie a lot because I loved it. Hell, I even linked it … Continue reading A Different Kind of Grief
There’s something that I mentioned here and here, purpose. Purpose for this blog, purpose for my writing, purpose for all of this. I struggle often to figure out what I’m doing here. What’s the point? I know that I have a lot to say sometimes, and my typical medium is Facebook where it’s very easy for lengthy posts to be glossed over, or annoy people, … Continue reading Storytime
So, I’m diagnosed bipolar with generalized anxiety and PTSD. The psychologist I saw a couple times actually calls it “Complex Trauma” rather than PTSD, since apparently prolonged and multiple childhood traumas are different but same-ish but different. Being concise is not my strength, but I’ll try. I had a hellish childhood, full of divorce, abuse, poverty, extreme bullying, neglect. I grew up fast, really fast, … Continue reading Dear Diary – Just, Meh…
Lists are fun. Today, okay not quite, there are juuuust under 3 hours left, so tomorrow, but today in Australia anyway, but I digress – I’m 38 years old. I didn’t get a trophy. Oh well. Since I had so much fun with -20- I decided to roll there again. Maybe eventually I’ll get every single/double digit number somehow, or maybe everyone will just get … Continue reading -38-
I’m really tired. There are a lot of reasons a person can be tired. Lack of sleep, overwork, stress. “Tired” is a word that people are very comfortable in their knowledge of its definition. We all know tired, right? When my oldest son was a baby, he had colic. At least, that’s what people assumed it was. He didn’t sleep, and so I didn’t sleep. … Continue reading Dear Diary – Chronic Pain/Fatigue
WordPress informs me that I now have 20 followers. I’ve come a long way from my audience of mom! In honour of this special occasion and my newfound fame, I have decided to create a post of -20-. 20 Things I Think Are Awesome**In absolutely no particular order at all ONE: Someone invented cake. Who invented cake? Apparently, the ancient Egyptians. That’s a thing I … Continue reading -20-
There’s this quote I see floating around the internet from time to time, and it goes like this: Emotional abuse is just as bad as physical abuse. Worse! You can heal broken bones; you can’t heal a broken mind. Dia Reeves, Bleeding Violet It’s always rubbed me a little bit wrong. I see now that I’ve had to dig it up that it actually comes … Continue reading Healing Broken Minds
When I first began blogging back in, I don’t know, 2010 I want to say? I didn’t really know why I was doing it. It seemed like something a lot of people were doing at the time, Facebook hadn’t really boomed yet into the sort of ubiquitous, all-encompassing presence it is today, yet. We were still couple years off the back end of Myspace, forums, … Continue reading May I Have Your Attention Please?
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